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It’s in the Water 11 September 2003

There must be something in the water. I’ve counted nine women so far that are pregnant. Nine! That includes online and offline. I’m sure there are more, but those nine are the ones I know of, or rather the ones I can remember right now. That is a good amount at one time. If it isn’t the water then I don’t know what it is. It seems like everyone is turning up pregnant. Not me though.

I would be elated, but at the same time very stressed and worried. My husband doesn’t want children. At least he says not right now. I can understand, but I’m a woman who has always wanted a family, so even in the worst situation I would probably be very happy to be having a child. When the time comes, I worry what his reaction will be. For a while, I’ve actually worried that it would cause a major strain in our marriage. But with his boss’ wife being pregnant, he is seeing a different side of his boss. And of course he shares his excitement at seeing the sonograms and hearing the heartbeat, so maybe it will bring my husband around some. He has a great relationship with another friend’s son who is 6. But of course he is always glad to leave the child with his parents and come home. He is always joking about not having kids. But sometimes, he says something that surprises me and makes me wonder if he’ll be ok with it.

I just don’t know what to think. I do know that I will be very nervous when the time comes and I have to tell him the news. Unless it happens at a time when we are trying. I think if it ever happens that he tells me he wants to start trying for a child, I will be shocked speechless and maybe I’ll cry happy tears. Until that day comes, I pray that he has a change of heart or that he’ll at least be somewhat pleased if it happens unplanned.