Amelia started babbling “mama” this morning. It’s so cute!! I’m not sure she means me yet, but it’s still music to my ears, of course.

I think she’s finally getting over her cold, minus the massive congestion that has her gagging a little. She was definitely acting herself last night, even giving me tons of kisses and she went to bed without hardly a fuss.

She’s also been happier when I leave her at daycare. No crying anymore when I leave her there. The past few days, she’s been smiling and playing when I leave, which is more like her.

But that’s another frustration I have…daycare. I love that she gets the interaction with the other kids. It’s great and since I have no choice, seeing that I have to work, I’m happy with the daycare we’ve chosen. But…

It frustrates me so much that she’s constantly sick. I hate it. I feel bad for her and I end up missing so much work because I have to keep her at home. It’s very unproductive and it irritates me because I know if she wasn’t at daycare every day, she’s probably rarely be sick. As it happens, she’s almost constantly got some bug. But what else can I do. I can’t quit my job and I can’t afford private care, even if I knew of any in the area.

I guess there’s pros and cons to every situation and you do the best you can, but I can’t help but feel guilty. I’m a mom.

I had a great weekend with my sister teaching her to knit and going yarn shopping. It was great but I missed my little munchkin and I know she missed me. DH and I video chat Saturday morning so I got to see Amelia via the computer and she got to see me, but it just wasn’t the same as being there physically. She had a great time with her daddy and they went out and played together lots, but I’m glad to be home with my little girl again.

She was super clingy yesterday and wouldn’t let me put her down. I practically held her all day long. She wouldn’t go to sleep either. She’d fall asleep in my arms and the second I leaned over her crib to lay her down she’s start bawling again. It was a rough day of her doing nothing but crying. I had to go out for a drive to get her to nap and that is so unlike her. She has never been this clingy before. She was pulling away from everyone that wanted to hold her (that she sees everyday).

It made me feel so guilty for leaving and being away. It’s horrible. It was only for 2 nights, but I guess to her it felt like forever. Don’t guess I’ll be doing that again anytime soon.

I’m going up to Atlanta on Friday to spend the weekend with my sister. DH is staying home with Amelia. I might be teaching sis to knit. We’ll definitely be hitting up some knit shops, since I need some supplies. And we might go see the new Harry Potter movie. I’ve been looking forward to this weekend away for some time, but it will be a little tough…

You see, this is the first time I will be away from my baby girl overnight! Not sure how I’ll do, but I know it’s going to be tough going 2 days without her. I plan to take the laptop and hopefully DH and I can video chat so we can at least see each other.